37: Quick Fix or Quick Sand

The more you struggle, the deeper you sink

That’s quick sand for you, you actually need to stop struggling to free yourself long enough to figure out the best way to free yourself – read that again, in case you think it doesn’t make sense

Paradoxical? yes, ironic? of course but isn’t that how life goes?

Right now I’m either looking for a quick fix or I feel like I am standing on quick sand, slowly sinking and making it worse by struggling to be free

I’m tired

Burning the candle at both ends for a while and feeling burnt out because of it

I can’t seem to focus for a sustained period of time, as if my brain is too scattered, thoughts spread too thinly to be effective

What am I to do?

I don’t know – I honestly don’t

Stop struggling is all I can come up with

Perhaps it’s case of going back to basics and doing simple things like the following

Taking deep measured breathes

Drinking water consistently and regularly

reading something inspirational

Revisiting goals


It’s not a quick fix, those only lead to that quick sand feeling of sinking further and further into whatever it is that you’re trying to get away from

It takes time

Be well


29: What Came First?

Focus or behaviour?

Passion or Persistence?

I need all the above and yet I don’t feel like i have any of it

I do not feel focused, my actions don’t follow my intentions and I am not sure whether its the fact that I am lacking persistence or whether its the passion that I am truly lacking

it causes me to wonder what comes first

Do I work on where my attentions lie or do I focus on what I do on a day to day basis to help me change the things I want to change?

What do you do?

How do you follow through on your goals and objectives?

How do you make sure that you are as productive in your private life as you aspire to be in your public, professional life?

When too many things are vying for your attention, how do you decide what is your priority and what is a ‘nice to have’

What came first?

The act of writing or the desire to write itself?

It’s just a few weeks past the half way mark of the year and I must admit that my life is becoming more and more hectic

I desperately need to find resolve, a reason to write my best writing and produce my best work all round

I just don’t know what to focus on first and what will make the best use of my time

What I’m doing now isn’t working

Be well


Spinning Plates

Maybe I’ve ran out of things to write about

Or perhaps, I am losing the inspiration

I think ultimately I may have too many plates spinning at the same time to be inspired to write. Could this be the beginning of burn out?

My producer and I had a back and forth yesterday about the number of projects we’re trying to accomplish. We are currently in the festival stage of one film: ‘Haraam’, in post production edit of another: ‘Unbreakable’ and in pre production of yet another: ‘Insanity’  Continue reading “Spinning Plates”