35: Crawling Forward

I’m always amazed at the level of tiredness I feel after a production shoot

It’s a wrap for ‘first corporate gig’ – (super thrilled) and now it’s over to the edits

I literally can’t get anything more from my brain today so this was my best attempt at crawling forward

Be well

SRZ

1: Celebrate The Journey

“You’ve had a great year you know” her voice, although slightly tired for an early Saturday afternoon was as sweet as ever

Nicole was still serving as my cheerleader, personal motivator and best friend, “do you ever stop and actually celebrate your wins?” She asks, “erm, yeah…guess so” I haphazardly reply but she knows me well enough to see past that

“No, you don’t and that’s a shame. You should stop every once in a while and celebrate how far you’ve come” she continues “in fact, that should be the topic of your next blog”

“Good idea” I reply, “are you gonna credit me in the post?” She asks through a smile that I can picture even though I can’t see her (I’m not one for FaceTime, she wouldn’t mind) “why would I do that?” I retort and she let’s out her signature ‘Nicole laugh’ – our phone conversation continues as normal about our day to day lives but the point she made sticks with me

So here I am writing about celebrating the journey regardless of whether we’ve made it to our destination yet or not

Small victories are worthy of our self praise, celebrations and can actually help reinforce our self belief in what we are ultimately working to accomplish

This year, one of my feature films was selected for two film festivals. I completed a documentary that will be coming out in America (my first international project!) at the end of this year or early next year

I filmed a low budget feature film over the summer called ‘Insanity’ – a drama about break ups and break downs and that will soon be in the post production stages –

I’m writing my final film for 2018 that I hope to film in December as it’s Christmas themed – if I achieve that then I would of essentially made three feature length films this year

I also secured my first corporate contract for film making and although it’s still a current contract that I’ve yet to fulfil, my eyes have been opened to the possibilities out there for future corporate work centred around filmmaking

As an introvert I went out more this year than ever before. I still turn down most social invitations but now it’s because I’ve learned even more about myself and as stupid as it sounds coming from an introvert: I like my own company and like being alone for long periods of time

Theres also a bunch of other projects that are in various stages of development that I’m somehow involved in, directing, producing, project managing or what have you

So yes it’s been a very good year in some respects

Not to mention, this blog: although very slow in growing it, I at least stuck with my commitment to write a post daily. For the most part, I’ve kept up with that

Listing the above just reminds me of two things: 1) success is a science and you can get a lot done if you just try and apply yourself and you do it consistently

I don’t even feel or classify myself as successful (yet) but yet the results are slowly starting to build up

2) none of it will make you happy because happiness is an art, not a science. You can have the whole world and still feel soulless. Sometimes, this year I’ve felt the lowest I’ve ever felt because although I achieved ‘things’ – maybe I felt lonely, discouraged or plain unhappy with myself or my life

Relationships are were it’s at. Life feels sweeter when experienced with others

Anyone can purchase a house but it’s the people within it who will make it feel like a home

So celebrate your small wins, it’s part of the art of being a more fulfilled human being

Be well

SRZ

78: Fragile Dreams

I’m on the train, on my way back from my writers group meet up

I’m both inspired and also had a dose of cold water reality thrown on my face (in a good way)

I love being a part of something that challenges me to improve but yet feels safe.

As writers, of any kind really but I’m specifically thinking about screenwriters, we can often be insecure about showing our work to others

Being judged is a dream and talent killer, especially when the dream or talent is still young and fragile

But a young and fragile dream must grow, it must develop roots of its own if it has any hopes of standing on its own

Whatever your fragile dream or talent may be, recognise that the only way it can grow is for it to be exposed to others, scrutinised and developed through consultation

You need feedback

You need sculpting

You need support. Period

This writers group consists of such incredibly powerful writers with sharp points of views that it makes me sharper by association

I learn from them and hopefully contribute to the group too

It’s a mastermind of sorts

Fragile dreams need to grow

Grow and strengthen your own

Be well

SRZ

74: Consistency

You can be a genius

Your talent can be so out of this world that it inspires jealousy in others

You can find it so easy that you barely have to try

But with all that talent, all that genius, if you lack the discipline of consistency, it’s very likely that you won’t get anywhere

‘Hard work beats talent if talent don’t work hard’ is a well known saying that has almost become cliche

But cliches are made for a reason

If you’re consistent with anything, you are doing, the likelihood is that you will get very far

It’s not the great things you do every so often that gets you far but is the daily things you do great

Be well

SRZ

72: Build Your Own

Every person is the master in their own home

Would you accept being bossed around in your own home by a stranger?

Would you even accept it from a close friend or family relative? I hope the answer is no, I mean why would you allow yourself to be bosses around, not in your own home!

We all may not be able to rule or control many things in life but we can definitely rule, control what happens in our own home

That is our domain, regardless of how big or small it is

That is our home – we should treat our lives in the same way. Why would we allow anyone to determine, decide or define any aspect of our lives that contradicts who we are or who we desire to become

We have to build our own

Our own homes, businesses, opportunities and ultimately lives

If we don’t build it then guess what? We will ask someone else to rent a room in the house they built which means they will determine everything for us, the cost of rent, curfew, whether we can bring guests or not etc

Understand that everything I’m writing should be taken metaphorically

Building your own house means taking charge of your situation and building a house that is large enough to serve as a home for the many facets of things you want to do

Build your own and nobody can take it from you and if they did you have gained the skills required to build another one

Be well

SRZ