55: I’m starting to hate this

This is getting so boring

I think I’ve realised that I just don’t want to do it anymore

I’ve proved to myself that I can commit to something for a long period of time and do it on a daily basis

It’s not funny anymore

Plus nobody’s reading anymore

Plus I’m not writing anything worth reading anymore

Plus life keeps happening and there’s no way for me to stop it

I think I’m even beginning to hate this

But not because I don’t want to do it….I hate it because it’s reminding me of my failure

Life keeps happening and I can’t stop it

Nobody’s reading this anymore

So I don’t want to write this anymore

It’s not boring

It’s humiliating

It’s ego destroying

And I obviously do not like it

And this is perhaps exactly where I need to be

Be well

SRZ

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