Writing daily is becoming a little harder than I anticipated
As real life picks up, I’m starting to find that doing this starts to feel a little inconvenient and slightly burdensome
I begin to question whether it would be okay to miss out one day – just one day, what harm would it do? My readership is so small that I don’t think anybody would notice or care, is what I tell myself
Struggling desperately to find a reason to break a commitment that I made to myself at the very beginning of this journey
True as my rationalisations may be, they are just that, rational – lies
They may sound clever, logical and reasonable even but that doesn’t make them any less dangerous for me to listen to
See, what I am learning is that small commitments matter, even if you are the only one that seemingly will be affected by your failure to follow through
You count, you matter
And ‘You’ are one too many people to led down – In the grand scheme of things, I can’t think of a more important person not to let down than yourself
Small commitments matter
Yes, of course we should revise our commitments on a regular basis to make sure they still matter and make sense to us, after all there is no point sticking with something that no longer serves you
There is such a thing as outgrowing your commitments
That said, breaking commitments, especially those made to ourselves has a compound effect. You break a commitment made to yourself, next thing you know, all other commitments are slowly becoming optional
Eventually, the only commitment you seem to be keeping is the one dedicated to the path of least resistance, the easy road, where pleasure and comfort reign supreme. It’s good to take it easy from time to time, things should always be done with moderation but lean too much into the pleasure of comforts and watch yourself fall behind
So, it doesn’t matter how tired I get, whatever else is going on in my life and how difficult and inconvenient it feels at any given moment for me to write or stick with my commitment, I can only recommit myself to this every day , taking it a day at a time but making it a MUST rather than ‘nice to do’
Whatever it is that you are after, working towards or pursuing, commit to the daily activity of it
Soon you will be faced with the true questions that will need honest answers if you are to stick with your commitments in the long term
why am I even doing this?
Does it really matter if I fail to do something about it today?
I don’t see any results, why should I keep going?
Nobody cares, why should I?
Questions like these and a multitude of others will enter your mind and you will need to answer them
Right now, my answer has always been to just do the thing I’m questioning myself about – that ends all internal debate and I live to fight another day
Stick to your commitment, especially for those that require you to work on daily
Do it daily and disregard what your eyes, feelings and senses try to tell you
Something is happen – especially when you cant see, feel or sense it
Don’t fall for the illusion – if you do, you will give up and stop – keep going