20. Making A Film

I don’t feel ready

I never do

It will all work out in the end

It always does

This time will be no different

I will walk my talk and move one step closer to my dreams

It all kicks off tomorrow

I’m currently making sure that the final touches are in place, dotting my i’s and crossing my T’s

Someone once told me that nervousness and excitement create the same sensation within the body

I guess I’m really excited 🙂

Live your dreams my friends

Be well

SRZ

19: Long Days

It’s been a long day

A 14 hour work day to be precise

Screened the documentary to more people and got very valuable feedback

Then spent another 4 hours working off the basis of the feedback

It’s even better now than it was before, it just goes to show that things can always be tighter, better, more slicker when it comes to filmmaking

I go home tonight tired but extremely fulfilled

I’m living my dream life, my imagination is fully engaged, my mind is challenged and every day presents a new opportunity to learn something new

I may not be in full control of my time right now but today I don’t think that’s too much of a bad thing

Be well

SRZ

18: Flow with It

I still haven’t found more time

Nothing’s changed since yesterday, to be honest, I haven’t even made the effort to change anything

Today was busier than ever and I reckon it will continue to feel like this for the duration of having multiple productions at various stages of development happening all at the same time

But the good thing about today was being able to screen my documentary to a veteran editor who specialises in sports documentary and getting great feedback from him and the colleague he brought along with him

He really liked it!

That made everything feel ‘worth it’ – the time pressure, the sense of lacking control and feeling directionless in the midst of the most direction my life has ever had

Guess sometimes it’s best to just go with the flow

Flow with it

Allow the currents of life to take me where they seem determined to take me and enjoy the ride along the way

Be well

SRZ

17: When you have no time

Right now I feel pressed for time

I have a project looming over me and another that i need to finish as soon as possible but yet every time I think we have the edit right, that the end is near, I realise that we’re nowhere near close to the end

I have learnt a lot working on this documentary and i’m sure there will be even more for me to learn working on the new one shortly

But balancing that with a full time job, a life and everything else that having a life entails can often begin to feel like I am being stretched too thin

Makes me wonder how others manage their time

How do you?

I need help

Don’t get me wrong, i wouldn’t trade this type of pressurised feeling for anything

I am in my element – I just want to succeed really badly

I know eventually that I will

As will you 🙂

Anyway, that’s all the time i have right now so…

Be well

SRZ

16. Happy Fathers

The world needs happy fathers

Men have so much expectations set on them from society

Thankfully things are changing for the better in regards to the patriarchy ideology of ‘this is a mans world’

As women break every glass ceiling put upon them, my hope is that men will not be vilified for our past ‘sins’

Men like my father are a reminder that we as men are still useful and needed. Men do still serve a very important role in society and contrary to current mainstream belief, we are not all driven by the need to self destruct

There is a lot to be said about absentee fathers, men who disappear when push comes to shove and crumble under the weight of what it means to be a man

There’s even more that can be said of men who have used their positions inappropriately, abused their power and sphere of influence, all so they can gratify their sexual desires

Men driven by ego, libido or a misplaced sense of entitlement should never be celebrated

But good men should and deserve to be celebrated

The pressure they are under to do the right thing, even or perhaps it’s especially, when it doesn’t feel good or popular to do so

Nobody else but a man would understand

Most men, if honest, would admit to feeling unhappy, walking through life just being unhappy most of the time

And why?

Because most men often feel they don’t measure up

The expectations of society and what they often achieve in their life very rarely match up

There’s a lot to live up to

But men, if there is nothing else you do, please do this: look after yourself so you can play your role in society well

Self care isn’t a negative or soft term, in fact, it’s one of the hardest thing you will ever learn to do

Self love isn’t for women, it’s as a manly for a man as it is feminine for a woman

Self love is a human thing

Men, we do ourselves a great disservice to my put it at the forefront of everything we do

Look after yourself with enough love and care to be the pillar in society we all need you to be

Happy Father’s Day

Be well

SRZ

15. Seeking A Change Of Pace

I’m 15 days in

That’s supposed to be over two weeks of this diet but it’s only been in the last three days or so that I’ve felt like I’m actually on a diet

I’m conscious of the fact that there’s only so much I can write about as far as dieting etc

So it’s time for me to focus on writing ideas that interest me and hopefully you’ll find them interesting too

But that’s for another day

For now, I hope you’re excited about your life and where it’s headed

Be well

SRZ

14: The Choice is yours

We were told that we can do anything in life if we just worked hard

That’s what they told me at least

Hard work pays and being dedicated and committed would result in success

Only problem was, they never explained what I should work hard at

I just assumed that I was supposed to work hard at my job and everything would take care of itself

Wrong!

How many people do you know, who work extremely hard at their day jobs and yet…nothing

They’re in the hamster wheel of life, running fast but staying in the very same position as before

Hard work on the day job is required to keep it and perhaps move a little bit forward each year but not to gain the kind of success and outcomes we all deep down wish to have

No, that kind of hard work is a different challenge entirely

It’s the hard work in refusing to accept what you see right in front of your eyes as reality

It’s the hard work of believing in your imagination rather than present day circumstances

It’s the hard work of ‘acting as if’ everything you want to be, do and have is already yours even when at present it isn’t

Day 14 sees me going home now after a very busy day at work, heading to get my hair braided and now heading back home

I’ve had a nutritional bar for breakfast, soup for lunch and haven’t had the opportunity to have dinner yet or work out but I bought a bag of honey roasted cashew and peanuts which I wouldn’t say is the greatest choice of snacks when on a diet but not the worst either

Be well

SRZ